THE DAY I SHOULD BE CHANGED

I just realised that , my personality had a problem . I should be start to change my everything . I must be change to more reality . I really not happy with my house , everything that I do was a mistake . Why DON'T I JUST CHANGE TO A EVIL ??? I'm also a human being , I should be have the feeling of JEALOUS . Why everything , my parent would buy for them , and the thing I need , need to pay myself ??? Confusing and suffocating . I turns like this not because I love to count , but the pet and the electronic that not belongs to me , why should I take the responsibility to let my parent scold ??? I'm just take care of the pet , that's not mine , why u all keep on saying that I would be go to hell without any evidence or u all just wish me or cursed me . I'm a human that had the NORMAL 6 SENSE inside the books GUIDELINE of BUDDHISM .