Boring Day

Today is the 1st day work after 9 days of RAYA holiday ( including semester break ) . The sad memory really as my wish , disappear after 15 September when I wrote my previous blog . The god really treat me good . I would appreciate everything that god had been gave me . I need gambateh for studies , love , family and even relationship between friend . ^o^ . I learn to enjoy food and drinks now . The drinks that I loved Most is Starbucks Americano .

Hope the sadness would disappear

I would ask what's happening to me ??? Depression still keep on attack my mindset . I would ask is that ridiculous to ask partner to have dinner with me everyday ? Is that ridiculous when I hug partner to sleep ? Why didn't had any scientific proven about love ? Then I could turns better because of those theory . The reference of articles really is depending on experience , that's what I experienced it . Love articles from sweet to sadness , everybody experienced it before , BUT why I didn't take it as a lesson ??? I saw a articles at Facebook just now , why the guy's always less a NEURON ( science terms - for the neurological terms ) and the girl's more one NEURON ??? But I had the female NEURON that love ROMANTIC ??? I'm just a f**k combination of 2 kind of gender ??? IMPOSSIBLE !!! The god created human being , is that I'm a INSANE or just abnormality that happened in my psychological problem + mental status .Really just hoped everything would be fine after this RAYA holiday . Everything turns normal and become a LEONARD Chong as usual as I did .

Thanks to Jason Haw + Chin , Si En

谢谢一直以来陪我的日子。在我最需要人的时候，就算你们工作再累，你们也借你们的耳朵让我诉苦。也许想你们说的有第一次就会有第二次，原来网恋比真正的恋情更幸福。任何甜言蜜语不会因为觉得恶心和尴尬而说不出口。I got a lot of word to tell DEAR , but I couldn't because I really worried I would depress . This holiday will be concentrate on novel and hang out with some friends . Sorry to make all of you worried about me . Thanks for all of your message , email and phone call . Si En , a thousand thanks mean useless , but the heart of blessed from me would followed wherever you go . Jason Haw , I like to hear your love story and thanks for share blog with me . Because this is the process of getting mature and learn a lot of thing . Jason Chin , you're the friend I most worried , don't be stress up with your life , enjoy it ( the same sentence I adviced to myself ) . The dance you learn is really make you more attractable . Jason Chin with me for 4 years for Jason Haw with me for 6 years . Thank you for you guy's , love you all so much .

How ???

I saw what the person wrote ... ? Single is more freedom ? My heart totally spoiled . I let myself a chance , I thought that I already gave DEAR a lot of space , did I too bother ? Did I too sticky ? Can't I SMS DEAR everyday ? I'm already a pessimistic guy's , although DEAR didn't said anything , but what DEAR wrote I felt it . Maybe as they said , nowadays love and sex were separated that's the reason why many HIV cases ? I don't no what should I entrust on . Maybe DEAR already exhausted with my childish , and I like to doubt what DEAR doing . I would just said sorry , because I looked normal and short , I worried other would grab you from me .

Unpredictable Ending ... T^T

Once again , I little heart spoil again . Is that Troponin I release when a person broke up ? I'm just early 20 , I got problem with my heart could not play badminton because it would lead to heart attack ? I really wish to have a wonderful love story and world , that's what I could leave for the world and some of my buddy still could had the memory with me . I had dropped my phone again by yesterday because rushed to home then got a date on 1300H , but my DEAR forgot that , when I called DEAR , DEAR sounds tired then I would just informed my phone dropped . Waited at the food court till 1400H , thought DEAR would came and rememberred the date . When I sent those broke up message , I reflects back all the memories with you , holded your hand when on the bus . Sometimes you turns very angry and mad because need to rushed back to hostel because of my HOSTEL LAW and REGULATION and scared me late . I really enjoyed the DAY traffic jam and I could HOLD YOUR HAND although just for a few minutes more . I like to call you PIGGY just because I'm the PIGGY . I like every morning when I received your morning greeting " Good morning , my dear / babe . " Not your mistake , just I'm the one who didn't appreciate and entrust on you . Maybe that's my sin then the god took you away from me . When I saw the couple at the Mid Valley , they would holded their hand and walked through the SHOPPING CENTRE . I still rememberred what you had said , we would see TWILIGHT together , that's why I haven't watched until now . For you , LOVE should be flexible and don't live at the past ; but for me , past is the everything and the promised you had been said .